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im leanne, im 14, i have no idea what i want to do with my life yet, and im afraid that if i dont figure it out now i wont succeed in life. dying is my biggest fear. life is too short to be angry all the time is what my mom tells me, but i cant help but be mad all the time. not all the time, because i have some pretty good friends. especially my friend courtney! shes amazing and there is never ever ever ever a dull moment with her. i love her so much, and she truely is my best friend. i have so many troubles with guys. i say i want a boyfriend, but heres the problem with me. im afraid if i get a boyfriend. that it wont be what i thought it was that i needed to complete me. and i dont want that to happen. i want it to be that i need a boyfriend just to feel a little complete inside. but what if it isnt. i hate the unknown, it scares me. but im just too sick of physical relationships with nothing more. i dont know what im doing with my life. and at the moment theres just too much pressure to figure it out. im in highschool. the golden years people say. but to me its the time in my life ive been dreading. i never thought it would come this fast. i think if i dont know what i want to do or have a solid foundation to build my life on by the time i get out of highschool i am going absolutely no where. and im scared.

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